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| Transitioning. Avoid rust, oil regularly.
Song of the Month: Benzos - Hurt Everybody
http://listen.grooveshark.com/#/search/songs/?query=benzos%20hurt%20everybody
Youtube only had a live version, which is sick, but check out the album version first. I heard this song for the first time in a Puma store in NY. Normally you wouldn't catch me dead in a Puma store, unless it had actual killer pumas, but I was with a friend. When I heard this song I loved it enough to go up to the front counter and ask about it, and the guy was nice enough to go check it out in the back and write the name on a piece of paper for me.
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I'm happy to have had it happen at all, even if it won't happen again.
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| So much I could write about from the last two weeks, but why not just write about today? Okay.
Song of the week: Jay Z ft. Alicia Keys - Empire State of Mind
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bm61weFrK4c
Feels good, don't it?
I'm sometimes scared I've turned into too much of a robot through my adventures in emotionlessness over the past decade. I only hope when the one moment I can imagine which deserves it most comes, it isn't forced.
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I almost cracked today, lookin' in my rearview mirror seeing a car slightly swerve lanechangin' to the left as a truck was comin' up. It didn't happen, it didn't even almost happen, but after seeing it not happen, I SAW it happen through an imagined lens. Someone inside of me tried to get out and my eyes got moist like leaves in mist. I was confused, but I closed the door before he got out, left to steam up the windows from the inside with a slight taste of salt. Maybe I'm still sick if I still have these moodswings, not quite in full swing but still stingin' from nearly wringin' my eyes clear dry without losin' a drop.
I take my exit, get home, park the car. Mom's working in the yard, trimming the roses, rearranging the plants, watering everything. The water flows through the hose so freely as if held back by nothing. "Hey, looks good, huh?" I shrug. "You don't care, do you?" I smirk and shake my head. She laughs and smiles, "I still love you." I can't help but laugh a little as I walk into the house. I love you, too, mom. I love you, too.
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| Songs of the Week:
Does it Offend You, Yeah? - Epic Last Song
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2lkuXfkaea4
Fun, cute video, amazing song. I just noticed that I've never posted Does it Offend You, Yeah?, but We Are Rockstars is a sick song, too. I've had this on repeat for hours on some days over the past couple months. I'm looking forward to their upcoming new album.
Ozma - Heartache Vs. Heartbreak
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oKkOXRtLtyc
I've also been listening to this song a lot lately. It has a nice sound. I tried to figure out the drums to it but my ear isn't good enough yet. I didn't like the album Pasadena as a whole, but this song stuck out as my favorite.
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I think this is destined for a clandestine existence
But secrecy and deception never bothered me in any instance
Childhood should be the only home for innocence
But we still needn't wake the world from its ignorance
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| Song of the never: Anything by James Blunt. Sorry to be blunt James, but I think you suck.
Song of the Week: Tété - Fils De Cham
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ooJ9mVnv5ls&feature=related
Dope French song I caught off Noah Grant's facebook profile pic. Don't know what it means, but I'm sure it means good music.
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Dear Summer,
It was really good seeing you these last couple days. I know you've been back home for a while this year; I just got so preoccupied in other things. Most years you helped my spirit up with your bright smile and radiant eyes, but this year my spirit sank to the bottom of a shot glass. I don't mean that I took up drinking, I just mean that spirits sink to the bottom of shot glasses...maybe I shouldn't try to use analogies. What I mean is it took a little longer for your analgesic effects to inebriate my sober sullen spirit. I don't mean you're a drug, I just mean...shit. Meaning is so overrated sometimes, you know what I mean? Like a scene from a movie which evokes sweet emotions without necessarily making sense, and without needing to, isn't that what life is meant to be? I feel like I've kept 3 secrets for devious reasons, and even 5 evenings with 5 ladies wouldn't be enough knowing that I skipped 1 amazing opportunity with you. I know I type in tongues, but like I said, like I meant, sometimes meaning is overrated and the simple beauty of life is worth more than the complex beauty of thought. Every year I fall for you. I'm not the competitive type and I rarely win tournaments, but just the thought of you helps me spring to any occasion. I could go on with the Gruyère, but I really just need to say thanks. I know you have to go soon for your own reasons, and I completely understand. I look forward to seeing you again. Until next year,
Anant
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| I haven't written in a while, overly concerned with how some that read this might react, but I didn't make this for others so I shouldn't give a fuck. Then again I didn't initially make this to just talk about myself. Then again I've been saying then again too much.
The last couple months have been a little rough. The doctor and dentist have had trouble diagnosing what's wrong with my jaw. I've had to quit singing for a while now and it feels devastating and has left a large emptiness where freedom and release once existed. I try not to talk about it much. I've been doing physical therapy for my leg for a month now and haven't noticed an improvement. I've never seen a need for hope as much as now, fortunately I seem to have enough, but earlier on I didn't even want to see anybody and became reclusive. I'm doing better mentally now. I'd prefer if people didn't worry about me, and I think that's what prevented me from writing in here. I have yet to make a private post, don't think I'll start now.
Song of the Moment/Week/Month:
The Roots ft. Cody ChesnuTT - The Seed (2.0)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lqi5P4gAvSY
Just try to throw this into one genre. It will not sit still.
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What a great big hood you have
The better to hide from you, my fear
What quivering lips you have
The better to hold back each tear
What a great bright red you wear
The better to express my pain
What a great big innocence you show
The better to hold back the rain
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